heartbeats: ユーリ!!! on ICE ・ 「plastic」 (skinny love.)
- You can be funny and kind or funny and cruel. The second one is easier, but the first one is worth it.

- Dip the french fry in the Frosty. Go on, try it.

- Habit is a powerful force we forget about until it’s turned against us. Be careful which ones you create.

- You will remember the most embarrassing crap you do in your life forever and in perfect clarity. Everyone else will remember the kindest things you do. It all comes out in the wash.

- You’re the only one who can let go of your grudges. It’s worth it, I promise. They’re not doing you any good.

- Doing the good, brave, kind things can feel silly if you let your internal critic get in the way. Reminder: No one else can hear that guy.

- I can count on one hand the number of times putting out negativity has brought me back something worthwhile and even when it works it feels terrible.

- Want to be better-liked immediately? Today? Right now? Use people’s names. Ask more questions. Make the person you’re talking to feel important without empty flattery.

- Don’t correct people. Unless their wrongness will lead to them getting hurt or hurting someone else. You’ll have a fleeting sense of superiority and they’ll resent you. Nothing worthwhile comes of it. This used to be so hard, but now I cringe when someone else does it.

- Cooking a Hot Pocket in the oven may seem counterintuitive, but man, it can really elevate it.

- Learning to appreciate things you don’t initially enjoy is the power to fill the world with stuff you like.

- Empathy is the final step of maturity. It can take some work, but you’ll be shocked how much easier the world is to navigate when you remember to use it.

- You’re probably not drinking enough water.

- There’s no narrative to your life, no arc, no reward for achieving all the things you want. That kind of thinking is a recipe for a you-centric world view and is a very lonely road. Focus instead on the role you play in the stories of others. When I was young, there was an old man named Brady at our church who always had gum. No matter what, Brady always had gum that he offered up freely. When he died, it devastated our youth group and I still remember him two decades later. Brady might have only played a bit role in all our life stories, but by playing it with generosity and kindness he achieved a sort of immortality. Putting others first with a cheerful heart isn’t easy, but because of that, even the smallest acts can leave an incalculable impact.

- Don’t read the comments. And when you do, only reply to the nice ones.


- Justic McElroy
What It Has Taken Me Thirty-Three Years to Learn

11.08.2013

heartbeats: 高校デビュー ・ 「lovestomp」 (see you again.)

明けましておめでとう~!


As always, one photo, one song for each month of this year (plus - should you want it - a zip file).
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i've got a feeling, i'm running on through until this town opens its eyes and wakes up!! )

ZIP FILE
heartbeats: 隠の王 ・ 「aspalas」 (red right ankle.)


yuletide 2016 - warfare @ ao3


Dear Yuletide Author,

Hello! Thank you so much for offering to write one of these fandoms. I requested all of these because I think they’re awesome series that deserve more fanwork, and I’m so excited to read whatever you come up with.

This is my second Yuletide - I had a great time writing last year, and I loved my gifts, so I’m looking forward to doing it all over again. Obviously, I’m on ao3 as warfare. Feel free to look around at my stuff! 

I’ll start by outlining general likes and dislikes, and then elaborate further on specific series and character requests - just know that I am honestly extremely easy to please, and I’d much rather read something you were genuinely excited to write than something you felt obligated to write because of this letter! So please take these as guidelines or soft requests (since I know how frustrating it can be to get a vague “write me anything!!”) rather than hard rules. I just like coming up with prompts; sometimes I like it more than actually writing fic.

FANDOMS:
KING OF PRISM by Pretty Rhythm (2016) | Hayami Hiro
IDOLiSH7 (Video Game) | Izumi Iori, Yotsuba Tamaki
モブサイコ100 | Mob Psycho 100 | Kageyama "Mob" Shigeo
Shin Megami Tensei Devil Summoner  | Kuzunoha Raidou XIV, Narumi Shouhei
Hustle Cat | Landry, Avery Grey



TL;DR:
YES, PLEASE!:
  • shipfic
  • gen
  • real casefic (someone solves a murder)
  • fake casefic (someone thinks there's been a crime but it's actually got a mundane explanation; something in the style of a crime procedural but with extremely low stakes, i.e., we found this cat)
  • character studies
  • found families
  • best friendship
  • friends to lovers - especially with pining in the interim
  • fake relationships leading to real relationships (both fake dating and "through hilarious circumstance we have to get married, whoops!")
  • pre-canon, mid-canon, canon continuation - I'd like for things to mostly follow the storyline, but I love fics that embellish on the existing story
  • "five things" fics
  • groundhog day style time reset hijinks
  • loyaltykink
  • humor
  • introspection
  • happy endings
  • I think I put casefic and "nineties anime hot springs/beach episode" in the prompts for every single one of my requests so I guess I'm really into that?
  • Here's a comment about my likes and dislikes if you're interested in or down for writing smut!

NO, THANK YOU!:
IN GENERAL  )



KING OF PRISM by Pretty Rhythm )

IDOLiSH7 )

モブサイコ100 | MOB PSYCHO 100 )

SHIN MEGAMI TENSEI: DEVIL SUMMONER )
HUSTLE CAT )


Thank you once again for writing for me, sorry for the novel (I... get excited), and have a good Yuletide!!
heartbeats: マギ ・ 「cawaii」 (take care.)
WIP MEME OH GOD THIS ISN'T EVEN EVERYTHING, GET IT TOGETHER QM

FUCK I FORGOT CUT TEXT )
heartbeats: 銀魂 ・ 「starsoft」 (miss jackson.)

明けましておめでとう~!


As always, one photo, one song for each month of this year (plus - should you want it - a zip file).
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look at where you are. look at where you started. the fact that you're alive is a miracle. to stay alive: that would be enough. )

ZIP FILE
heartbeats: ユーリ!!! on ICE ・ 「plastic」 (Default)


NEW YEARS CARD POST

Comment below with an address and I'll send you a card for New Year's!
I send internationally as well so don't be shy!
I'm happy to send a knock-knock joke or a code or something too!!
All comments are screened so the only person who can murder me is me
I mean murder you
I can murder you



I won't though


you thought it was an end to this post, but it was me, dio!!!
heartbeats: ジョニーズ事務所 ・ 「xxdarzie」 (don't do sadness.)


Dear Yuletide Author,

Hello! Thank you so much for offering to write one of these fandoms. Obviously, I requested all of these because I think they’re awesome series that deserve more attention and fanwork, and I’m so excited to read whatever you come up with.

I tend to be drawn to larger, more active fandoms, so this is my first Yuletide and my first small fandom fic exchange. I’m on ao3 as warfare. Feel free to look around at my stuff! I’m a huge believer that you write what you would want to read -- so I guess I’m kind of saying I want to read stupid jokes, occasional crushing sadness that turns out okay, and sometimes I get frustrated and write 30k about high school boys and their feelings. Insert a joke about the #blessed and #relatable hashtags.

If for some reason you’re struggling with me, derogatory and brampersandon are without a doubt your best resources on what I like.

I figure in this letter I’ll start by outlining my general likes and dislikes, and then elaborate further on specific series and character requests - just know that I am honestly extremely easy to please, and I’d much rather read something you were genuinely excited to write than something you felt obligated to write because of this letter! So please take these as guidelines or soft requests (since I know how frustrating it can be to get a vague “write me anything!!”) rather than hard rules. I just like coming up with prompts; sometimes I like it more than actually writing fic.

PLEASE NOTE I've used basic coding to try to spoilerblock and I am trying to avoid major spoilers where possible, but there may be some spoilers for the series in my discussion of series specifics, so if you haven't finished the series and you're worried about being spoiled tread carefully.

TL;DR:
YES, PLEASE!: shipfic or gen, found families, best friendships, character studies, fake relationships leading to real relationships, friends to lovers, canon continuation, "five things" fics, loyaltykink, humor, fluff, introspection, pining, happy endings. Here's a comment about my likes and dislikes if you're interested in or down for writing smut!

NO, THANK YOU!: deathfic, scenes of rape or self-harm, dubcon, noncon, A/B/O, most hard kinks (again, here's a comment about my likes and dislikes if you're interested in or down for writing smut!), magical creatures/high school/college/barista/reincarnation AU, crossovers, body/genderswaps, "crack", issuefic, kidfic (the main characters are kids, they adopt a kid, mpreg; please, just no kids).

IN GENERAL  )


魔人探偵 脳噛ネウロ | MAJIN TANTEI NOUGAMI NEURO )

SHIROBAKO )

月刊少女野崎くん | GEKKAN SHOUJO NOZAKI-KUN )

SHIN MEGAMI TENSEI: DEVIL SUMMONER )

Thank you once again for writing for me, sorry for the novel (I... get excited), and have a good Yuletide!!
heartbeats: マギ ・ 「cawaii」 (take care.)
First, your body must comply by having an ongoing issue that is not easily solved with a round of brutal antibiotics. Then you must prove that is not Just Depression or Just Anxiety or Just Your Questionable Life Choices that are making you ill or think you are ill.

This is harder than it sounds.

---


Don’t tell anyone at work what’s going on. Don’t take any time off.

---


Defer. Always defer. Defer to the nurse with the clucking tongue. Defer to the insurance representative and admit it probably wasn’t necessary. Defer to the doctor with the soft hands and wet sympathetic eyes and no answers. Talk about your body as if it’s a faraway country ravaged by stupid disasters.

---


Be good because if you’re not, you’ll find yourself labeled hysterical, depressed, bored, lonely, a drug-seeker, attention-seeker, perfectly healthy with a low threshold for discomfort.

---


Live with pain. Walk around with it like a ratty security blanket wrapped around your throat, smelling of pee and saliva and sneezes. Some days it chokes you, some days you cry and cry but most days you just trudge and push through and try not to mention it to anyone because you know it leads to questions about your doctors, what do the doctors say, what medications have you tried, and then a list of woo woo suggestions, most of which you have earnestly tried.

When people ask what’s wrong with you, be cheeky. “I have Dead-On-The-Prairie Syndrome” or “I’ve got the vapors” or “My humours are out of balance.”

Adopt a strict diet and exercise regimen. Bring your own food everywhere and make fun of yourself at every turn. Take handfuls of supplements. Meditate. Go to sleep at nine p.m. every night. Trudge through your days but always with a quick smile, an easy sense of humor, and an appreciation for how hard everyone else’s life is. Be cheerful and easy and then maybe someone will want to help you.

Google “Am I dying?” You’re pretty sure you’re dying. But if you were dying, wouldn’t other people notice?

Take all the medications prescribed, even when they make everything much, much worse. Call the doctor, call the doctor, call the doctor. Leave a message, leave a message, leave a message.

Be good. Be so good. Deep inside you believe that if you are good, maybe this pain and humiliation will somehow lift, pull away from you and simply disappear as easily as it came.

When you’re finally called back after two weeks of chasing the doctor, be jovial and grateful and fast, he’s got a lot of people to call back. When you tell him the medications are no good, he gives you permission to quit but has nothing else for you. “Let’s hope you get pregnant soon, you might go into remission then.”

You know you wrote Infertility in your list of issues in that careful blue pen. You wrote it over and over and over again. But okay, let’s hope. It’s all you’ve got.


- Natalie Dougall, How To Be A Good Patient
The Toast, 06.04.2015

heartbeats: ユーリ!!! on ICE ・ 「plastic」 (サマータイムレコード。)

明けましておめでとう~!


As always, one photo, one song for each month of this year (plus - should you want it - a zip file).
(SKIP THE BULLSHIT AND LISTEN ONLINE?!)

call it your two-point-oh, your rebirth, whatever. )

ZIP FILE
heartbeats: うたのプリンスさま! ・ 「buttholes」 (wrecking ball.)


NEW YEARS CARD POST

Comment below with an address and I'll send you a card for New Year's!
I send internationally as well so don't be shy!
I'm happy to send a knock-knock joke or a code or something too!!
All comments are screened so the only person who can murder me is me
I mean murder you
I can murder you



I won't though


you thought it was an end to this post, but it was me, dio!!!
heartbeats: ユーリ!!! on ICE ・ 「plastic」 (lost time memory.)


I don't know what there is to say that hasn't already been said, so instead I'll say this. )
heartbeats: ユーリ!!! on ICE ・ 「plastic」 (it's as clear.)

明けましておめでとう~!


As always, one photo, one song for each month of this year (plus - should you want it - a zip file).
(SKIP THE BULLSHIT AND LISTEN ONLINE?!)

cut for photos. )

ZIP FILE

smother.

Nov. 11th, 2013 09:27 pm
heartbeats: 高校デビュー ・ 「lovestomp」 (see you again.)


NEW YEARS CARD POST

Comment below with an address and I'll send you a card for New Year's!
I send internationally as well so don't be shy!
I'm happy to send a knock-knock joke or a code or something too!!
All comments are screened so the only person who can murder me is me
I mean murder you
I can murder you



I won't though
LBR I can't either
My hands



Do it jerks
heartbeats: ユーリ!!! on ICE ・ 「plastic」 (take your time coming home.)
"There’s a line in "Infinite Jest" by David Foster Wallace that I used to return to often. It reads, “You will become way less concerned with what other people think of you when you realize how seldom they do.” It helps a lot when I get stuck in my head about what others think of me. But I’ve learned that it is generally ill advised to accept wisdom from a man who killed himself when you are desperately trying to keep yourself alive. I have also learned that it is remarkably untrue.

People think of you often. They think of you fondly. They think the world of you. There are office managers and baristas that think about you. There are Facebook friends you haven’t seen in 15 years and weirdos in your building that think about you. There are dentists and high school lab partners that think about you. They would be devastated to hear the news of your death. They would mourn you. They are people that would be uncomfortable ever telling you how highly or how often they thought of you and vice versa because we live in a world that eschews intimacy and affection in favor of the allegedly “comfortable” distance we choose to keep."

- Alana M
XO Jane
06.01.13

heartbeats: ユーリ!!! on ICE ・ 「plastic」 (god knows...)


Okay, asking somebody how long they believed in Santa Claus is so stupid. You can't even consider the topic suitable for idle conversation. But if you still wanna know how long I believed in some old fat guy who wears a funky red suit, I can tell you this: I've never believed in him, ever. The Santa that showed up at my kindergarten Christmas festival, I knew he was fake. And I never saw mommy kissing Santa or anything. But I have to say, that even as a little kid, I knew better than to believe in some old man who worked one day a year.

Now, having said that, it wasn't til I got older that I realized that aliens, time travelers, ghosts, monsters, espers, the evil syndicates and the anime/manga/fantasy flick heroes that fight said evil syndicates, were also fake. Okay, I guess I always knew those things were bogus, I just didn't wanna admit it. All I ever wanted was for an alien, time traveler, ghost, monster, esper, evil syndicate, or the hero that fought them to just appear and say "Hey".

Unfortunately, reality is a hard road indeed. Yep, you gotta admit, the laws of physics definitely put a damper on things. I even stopped watching those TV shows about aliens and ghosts and stuff. Aliens, time travelers, espers; of course they don't exist, but a little part of me wishes that they did. I guess I've grown up and realized I can think about those things and still accept reality. But by the time I got out of junior high, I pretty much outgrew that kind of stuff and I guess I got used to the idea of living in an ordinary world. Just like that, I was in high school...

that's when I met her.


local god ; a melancholy of suzumiya haruhi (haruhi/kyon) fst )

ready?_

Dec. 30th, 2012 01:10 am
heartbeats: 野ブタ。をプロデュース ・ 「levelsss」 (rollerskate skinny.)

(a little early, but) 明けましておめでとう~!


As always, one photo, one song for each month of this year (plus - should you want it - a zip file).
(SKIP THE BULLSHIT AND LISTEN ONLINE?!)

cut for photos. )

ZIP FILE


Have a safe New Years, guys. See you on the other side.
heartbeats: ユーリ!!! on ICE ・ 「plastic」 (little talks.)
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you so much.

Tonight, more than 200 years after a former colony won the right to determine its own destiny, the task of perfecting our union moves forward.

Read more... )
heartbeats: ユーリ!!! on ICE ・ 「plastic」 (Default)


I initially wasn't planning on making this entry - I don't want my truly pathetic experience to take time and interest from those people who truly suffered this time last year - but I think it deserves to be said, in part because I want to discuss a truly insane tweet I may have made last night and in part because if I've learned anything in the last week and in part because I think if this journal is to stand as any sort of record of my life this particular set of experiences might as well be shared.

i will probably regret talking about any of this in the morning. )
heartbeats: ユーリ!!! on ICE ・ 「plastic」 (you found me.)

(a little early, but) 明けましておめでとう~!


As always, stolen from [livejournal.com profile] dalton; one photo, one song for each month of this year (plus - should you want it - a zip file). This year I had some difficulty narrowing down some months to only one song, so a couple of them have more. I HAD A LOT OF FEELINGS TO BE EXPRESSED IN SHITTY JPOP THIS YEAR, GET OFF MY BACK
(SKIP THE BULLSHIT AND LISTEN ONLINE?!)

cut for photos. )

ZIP FILE


Have a safe New Years, guys. See you on the other side.